The Last Moments of Gabriel

Abandoned in a world of confusion

I dare not open my eyes.

With every breath – crawls the pain,

eating me alive.

Hatred consumes me.

The helpless notion of life slipping away.

Counting the days of the rest of my life,

knowing the dark shadows await.

I was neither an angel, nor a sinner had I become.

Plain life, astonishing mind,

curiosity that killed the cat.

Too many questions that were left without an answer.

Now I am paying the price by feeding my cancer.

The last of my moments I spent in a room.

My eyes are shut, but the pain is no more.

Only the stream of drugs maintains my broken being.

I fear my death, but time has run out,

The dark shadows take over the night.

I feel the warmth of the living,

As I fall into the last place I would be.

I rest with no peace.

Darkness is my friend.

All that I love are shedding a tear,

whispering words I cannot hear.

Cold dirt is covering my face.

The sound of insects invaded my ears.

I am left alone, lying in the earth –

"even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death".