Splinters

Wish I were blind
And weren't blinded by your enigmatic beauty
I wouldn't care at all if I were blind

Wish I were deaf
Eternally unable just to hear you laughing
Forever repent from the echo of your cry
Wish I were deaf
And to the end of time enshrined in silence
And smiling like a fucking retard untill then
If I were deaf
I would not break the glasses
I would not gather splinters as they break
If I were deaf
I would not wish i'd listened
I wouldn't care at all if I were deaf

Wish I were mute
And couldn't sound a whisper
And couldnt breath a word about my loss
Wish I were mute
And wouldn't say a word, knowing you wouldn't listen
Embracing silence as my one and only friend
If I were mute
I would write down every sentence
I would have treasured every sigh
If I were mute
I would have never questioned all that happened
I would not care at all if I were mute

Wish I were deaf, and mute, and blind and amputated
Severed to pieces much too small for anyone to recognize
Wish I were far away, undressed, asleep, intoxicated
And would not give a damn about the shards of glass inside my arms
Wish I were cold and numb and lonley
Fed up with my disdain and your disgrace
If I were dead, i'd wish that we had never happened, I would not care at all if I were dead.